I donnot know since when the time to me became such short and quick-wasted, quite strange feeling it just came, though I tried my best to keep every moment on my work effectively, all cases which should be dealt looks changeless in number still.

 

However, no matter how difficult the object I'm striving for, there would be no single step backward to me.

 

May the Lord bless and strengthen me for the coming challenges.

 

1# Do not have yourself desperate while you hear or get the bad result, which could only push you into a abyss.

 

2# Try to make a conclusion why and how the bad news comes out instead of just blame yourself as a fool or something like that.

 

3# A good plan would be absolutely required, to re-try and re-build your self-confidence, the first step, just make a smile before the mirror no matter how weird it looks.

 

4# Go to bed earlier that day and fall into sleep quickly without a single thought.

 

5# Make sure you get up naturally the next day and, tell yourself that you are the best one in the world and you could fix any trouble or problem from now on, the most important ---- do not leave the mirror untill you made a perfect smile to the one who is smiling to you.

 

6# Just be stable every moment to catch your goal.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Many people in China believe that the life here could be quite simple ---- eating, working, earning, marrying, housing and dying. All people in such a rush age, in such a crowed society, have little choice to make determination of their own life, because, first of all, the realistic would probably ruin the one who would like have a try to challenge it. Partly, I concede that there would be nothing more important than the basic need of living, such as food, cloth and house, etc. However, if these actions had been considered as human's life, I have a question here, that what's the difference between human and animal?

 

    Of cause, every creature should first own its life at any situation, or else, nothing could be probably alive for such a long time since the earth was funded millions of years ago. In this case, we must obey the rule that nothing could be prior before the instinct of survive, so there would be no doubt that the way the Chinese people had chosen was absolutely right. However, we, human beings, have a very significant difference from the other animals ---- that we not only have the desire of living but also have ideas that push us to improve our life and make rapidly development during a long history, but dislike the monkey who just know playing on the trees and pick up the food among the branches. Thereby it seems that the instinct creates us and the idea makes us human.

 

    Having recognized that the importance of idea, we could make review on what Chinese people is doing at present. Nowadays the real estate merchant has considered the people who live in China as house-owing slaves, the ones who work for a residence for life-time or even die for it. Some news-paper also appoint there had been a serious problem in Chinese society, that the majority of people have no idea about their future or their living condition ---- they just work, eat, sleep day after day ---- they just concern the event that happened around ---- they just recognize the life is only composing with marriage and breeding. Haplessly, we cannot, in any situation, differ the notion above from animal's behavior; it's indisputable that every kind of creature would like to do the same when they are alive. Most people nevertheless realize what a terrible living condition they have ---- some ancient philosophers said that "It's more horrible for the one living in hell still enjoys his life than feels suffering and dreadful".

 

    To sum up, a life in vacuum could be meaningless, because the significance of life is more than surviving and breeding, we should seek for something better, something that can improve our horizon, our knowledge, our living level. We anyhow have no right to order people to go in that way or this way, but admittedly, at least, the majority of people should have their circumstance better, more humanlike, they should have a dream of their life, should have a proposal which could be worked for more than to own a residence while death is coming. Accordingly, then, the people in China should not accept the title of "House-owning Slave" ---- they are not slave as well as they are not ants which know nothing except working and eating ---- they are human ---- they should have an idea, a Chinese Dream, even it's too far to reach sometimes.

 

Life in fifty years

Both dreamlike and illusioned

Overlooking everything existent

Could be anyone eternel

 

Attaining your goal trustfully and realize your dream dramatically......

 

Far from viewing childhood as an innocent period in human's lifetime, the children of recent day portrayed it as a complicated and unexpected result that caused by bad domestic education, hard to modify while geting older. With this conception, there would be no doubt that chinese people are getting their children more and more arrogant and wilful, since they begun the fundamental listening to the parents. But just a few people had realized that how serious the fact will be in the nearing future, here I'm trying to make some simple explaination.

    I concede that the parents should take care their children and treat them well, they are on the correct side of education. However, there is very important point which they had ignored   ---- that the over-loved education could only rise a coddle but not genius. Yet, the children who had growed up in such a condition will have nothing but for selfish and unkind, they lived in a world that has been already designed or scheduled by their wise parents, since they were borned from matrix, so they merely have their life for calling their own duty. Although the public considered the latter children as an intelligent generation, with best education system and well-trained skill, while composing with the ealier, they could only tend to be the one who even donnot know how to share the life with others, living in a absolute individual way. So  it's easy to understand the appearence on the newspaper, wht we have been told too much about the case of the so-called Prince or Princess in the chinese families all over the mainland.

    The public consideration is troubling in another respect as well. First, the children who were protect well by their families will have a shortage of living ability while they start a privite life, for example, there are many young men in the college who even cannot wash clothes by their own hand. To recognize the problem, some education scientist appointed that we are creating a generation of weakness and disable on basic skill, if there is any unexpected disaster happened to they, on which no one could have an imagination. Second, the social problem or crisis would enlarge when this over-loved children were grow up, since their parents had appeared to have many incorrected deed in the daily life, the children, surrounded by the ill situation, could go further than their father and mother ---- having little ethical principle. And in fullfilling of the promise of "living better", the new generation not only know how to have their life full of rivalship in order to get a better career than any others, but also have a well-trained sense that it had been tought the money is the best and perfect treasure in the world without any exception, in this case, people'd prefer to do everything that could be evaluated by financial stimulation. In short, the public consideration could bring losses for education system more than make a better promotion on ethical train.

    In sum, although the chinese parents did treat their children better than any other countries, let they have a peaceful and ascendant way of life, the future of them could be a an uneasy life,because of the shortage of tolerance and accommodation. As education is so important to a nation's coming days, such recommendation could be given, " If you love your children, donnot have tolerance for their bad behavior and sense."

 

   

 

The world is calling me......

 

I've been to Hainan for about 5 days after dealing with my long and boring translation work. Hainan, a big island by the south-china sea, not far from the Mainland, is considered as Hawaii in China, with very beautiful blue sky, clean sea and white seashore......

 

    I've never seen real sea before the trip, so I can't image how the sea looks like. Although I've been to some big lakes, the sea, did catch my eye and shoke my heart by the first sight~! I guess there is no word can discribe the sea well and truly, the beauty of the nature was so great and powerful that no man-made could catch up with, because, we, human beings, are only a tiny part of the mother nature, our imagination and language are so limited before the creator.

 

    Not untill had I seen the sea, there could be no sense of how great the sea is in my heart. Without a frontier by the sky, the sea just looks like combining with the sky and taking everything on the earth to the high sky. Standing by the white sea shore, feeling the strong and salt wind from the sea, there is voice, with most attractive, telling me an old story that happened long long ago......

 

    The sea, my big sea, is the biggest wonder in the world, in my heart. One day, if the chance coming, I will cross the sea and see a new different land on the other side of the sea~!

 

    The big sea, my dream sea.......

 

 

How long could the distance of heart be?

 

Could we just touch each other directly with our heart?

 

From my spirit to yours...

 

Not answer, and not explaination,

 

Is the best answer or explaination;

 

but to believe, that each silence

 

Find it better than anwer.

 

Heart is long, and love is changing,

 

And our spirit, though stout and staunch,

 

Still, like smashed stone, are cracking

 

Into trivial slip mote to the air...

 

In the spirit's broad space,

 

In the journey of Life,

 

Be not like weak, frightened bird!

 

Be a hero in the crucifixion!

 

Distance of heart, that, perhaps pain,

 

Swiping o'er life's trustful main,

 

A falsehearted and heartache'd brother,

 

Seeing, shall keep distance of heart again?

 

I was so disappointed when I heard the truth of the so-called intercommunion in my college, that every position had already been determined before the interview, in this case, wot I had took part in is only a performance whatsoever! From now on, I will never trust any so-called case that the college leader said or promised.

   

    There is no another nation in the world except Chinese will pay great attention on the relationship in their daily life ---- to the chinese, the relationship is the most advanced productivity. If you wanna deal with something in China, a good relationship is absolutely needed, furthermore, it means you get to do something important before you ask for help ---- the acient chinese governor had a nice faculty on this part but weak on solving public problem. So if you have done everything well and got enough friends, China is a perfect paradise which could let you do anything with your wish.

   

    Anyhow, actually I wanna thanks those college leaders who had chosen four beautiful girls to join the intercommunion aboard, which warn me that you could only depend on yourself but either the college or any other so-called "fair play" because of the plebeian status, you have neither the relationship nor the privilege to compete with those so-called good one.

 

    A society without Justice and competetion will not be better and stand for longer, so does a university or a college; if everyone has losen faith with the authority, that there would be no fairness nor peace forever......

 

    Unfortunately, I could just depend on myself that if I wanna realize my dream here.

 

I have a belief that there is no absolute justice in the world. In this case, we could just concern justice as a relative judgement for everything in our daily life. From the very ancient time, people had begun to fund a judicial system to protect the legal right of everyone ---- the word “Justice” also had been created then, in old Greece and old Latin. However justice was not as simple as the rule of nature, it was the regulation that had been funded by human beings themselves, in the other hand, if no active protection existed, the law or justice would be easily destroyed by any illegal action.

   

    To fund justice, the first step is to establish a democratic law system which could protect most people who are the legal citizen in a country. For this reason, the justice must have a wide and canonical definition to the people, or else, it could be took place by some illegal action, such as revenge or lynch etc. In a addition, justice does not equal as law, to a lawful society, the justice is treated as part of ethic or belief of the people, that people who live here will trust and keep the law or regulation which is funded to administrate or make judgement of everything ---- the justice should become some kind of conception of human rights.

   

    Any perfect law or regulation was both funded and ensured by the human, in the opposite, the creator also has the power to alter or even cancel what they had made, so justice is absolutely determined by the executor thereof. No favorable law or justice could be executed by a bad government or governor, an ancient Chinese political philosopher named Han Fei said about 2200 years ago. Neither in the eastern nor the western, to have a trust on the justice, people always begin with the trust of the governor or the judge, because they are the representative of justice and also the executor of justice. In the modern world, we often concerned the justice with the police, because they are the basal and also the direct part of the justice ---- the policy always make a primary judgment at first time.

   

    The justice, with most sacred meaning, is equal to everyone in the world, so anyone who believes in justice should treat others as equal as to himself at first. To a society, justice should be ethic or even belief, that people will keep it in their daily life without any additional prescription; or else, the justice will be treated as some kind of deceit which just could serve the privileger but befool the citizen, in that case, the society is on the border of collapse ---- a revolution is quite needed then.

   

    Otherwise, no justice could be used forever because of the great advancement of the human’s history, so we could not judge any recent event by so-called justice that was thousands years ago. Wherefore we must have a correct understand on justice ---- different justice fit for different age and culture.

   

    Anyhow, the meaning of justice is changing every minute, but there is a theme of justice which will never be altered, that the justice to me is a great human conception to protect the equity of everyone, which is absolutely against the privilege and the so-called law of the jungle, a most important shield of human rights.

 

I was busy with my part-time job recently, that I had been really shaken by something around.

   

    Saling clothes, an intractable job for every man, because that most clothes on sale were disired for women only, and the remainder, with low price, dirty color, bad quality and harsh handle were made into men's clothes.

   

    To be a freshman on saling, I'd never seen such a scene while the gate was opened on the early morning ---- guests from every corner rushed into our sale-area as swarm search for nectar. After the a little bit shaken, I had realized that most of the guests were women, both young girl and wrinkly old lady, and it was seemed that they had a short of chothes for several years and the chothese here were cheap or even free, because the shopping baskets in their hands were easily got heap. Meanwhile, the clothese in the shop was absolutely expensive because of their famous brand, everything is over $10, but these women didn't cared whatsoever but just put wot they like into the basket one by one.

   

    Maybe I was too fresh to be a salesman, it's the first time that I found most of my guests were way fat women, even the youth, at least they were fatter than me. It is a serious social problem in China at present, the number of fatso had been increased rapidly, especailly women, the rate is over 7.2% per year. You can hardly believe that someone could wear vogue clothes in such way, some young fat girl still wanna dress a skintight pink gallus-shirt which made her like a sausage with full fat, other fat lady even prefer to dress a miniskirt that their short and thick legs were looked like two hams hang on something, and the last thing I wanna talk about that some old fat women even push their heavy body with cumulate fat into a small T-shirt or skirt ---- it really disgusted me again and again.
 
    Meanwhile, I began to think of the reason why so many fat women appear recently, and why the fat farm is so popular in China. You can see the advertisement of losing-weight everywhere in Shanghai and other cities in mainland, and there are thousands women pay even hundreds dollar on their losing-weight practice but with little effect. According to a long time observing, I found that the women around are too lazy to use their brain, when there is question, only a few of women prefer to think of and answer herself, the rest would keep silent till the next question. Otherwise, I found that most girls in my university know nothing but enjoyment or fashion, they only talk about shopping, soap opera and animes everyday and every moment, to the exam, they only have to recite everything in the book, so brain for them is as simple as a recorder, hardly be used to think of anything. Some medical report said that the brain could assimilation most of fat in the body, and translate them into energy, so a man who often use his brain could hardly get fat.

 

    That's another strange thing that some women prefer to take some way expensive losing-weight medicine but do not wanna pay a 10 minutes walk to somewhere, and everyone know that walk is best way to reduce your fat and keep stature, it is do surprise me! In a addition, so far as I know there is over 50% women prefer to marry someone old and rich, which had did startled the people.

   

    I just wonder that wot's happened to the women here.

 

I'm not impressible whatsoever, oppositely, I could suffer something extremely bad for quite a long time. However, there is always a limitation for everyone in the world, that you can't suffer for something for all your lifetime. A quiet life, without any terrible noise or disgusting persons around, is the best wish for me, but it seems that such a simple request could not be contented here, in China. The Noise is everywhere in China......

 

    A new comer has moved house in the flat in which I lived, a nightmare began from then on. I dont' know exactly what chinese ethic is, that how can they just do as they wish to? The one, living on the 4th floor, makes a horrible noise everyday for his fitment, sometime even at the mid-night, that caused a serious palpitation while I was having a deep sleeping. For a long time, I prefered to suffer, because I didn't want to get any trouble ---- most of chinese people use to do this when they had trouble.

 

    Today is saturday, a legal holiday for everyone all over the world, I decide to have a late geting-up because of the fatigue that I had have these days. Nevertheless the noise did'nt stop for a coming of holiday, I was suddenly woke up very early on the morning at about 8:00 by a loud, depressing, frightening and nauseating noise from up-stairs, everything is shaken with the rhythm of Tataaattaa! I was so angry in such a manner, that I called the police immediately ---- a new act that was passed on march added something could protect poeple from the harmful noise made by their neighbor. The policy said they would come soon and told me that they could deal with this case absolutely, but when they stood at my gate, everything was opposite whatsoever! A way fat, middle-age policeman said to me that the fitment on 4th floor was natural and legal, he didn't think the fitment has or had disturbed anyone. Actually I even can't hear wot he said exactly because of the big noise during the talking, was he a deaf or someone like that? Beside he had also taught me that there was no lastest law prescribed people couldn't on weekend, that I just read the whole-length writ on the morning while I got up loathly, was I a blind or psycopath? It was really zmazing at all!

 

    I had fixed the case myself by talking to the person who lived on the 4th floor after the policy went away, though this guy began the fitment again late at 16:00, at least, I could have a rest and relaxation for about 3 hours before the supper.

 

    The noise, such as clamour and yawp, can be heard everywhere and anytime every city in China, the noise caused by fitment is not the only one. When you are in a aswarm restaurant or caff in China, it's hard for you to hear anything that other said to you because of the huge noise which other chinese had made, parts of these poeple even holler or scream sometimes. In this case, I begin to think that why the noise is extremely and widely existed in China ---- I read some articles from newspaper that the chinese might be the loudest speaker in the world even louder than the African or Hindu.

 

    So far as I know, the chinese is accustomed to make noise because of these reasons:

    1. After The Cultural Revolution, the chinese people were out off their traditional ethic by the persecution and the affect of communism, they became selfish and offish to others, so they just do everything that could satisfy themselves ---- they consider that the loud-speaking could make their voice clear and easy-going, they don't wanna stop the noise of fitment because they couldn't be sufferd at all and a single pause could cause a delay of the fitment.

    2.The chinese governor always said that they will fix any trouble in citizen's daily life, on the other hand, they merely pass a single helpful law about the social management, such as dealing with the noise-pollution, so they answer everyone who got a trouble that our law has not been consummated yet, as a perfact excuse. In addition, the police in China is also no helpful when we caught a trouble, they even refuse to expostelute the person on the 4th floor while I requested at meantime ---- they just didn't invoid in any trouble whereof.

 

    All in all, when there is any trouble in our life, we could not dependent on neither the goverment nor the police but ourselves, because they would only offer you thousands excuse but no action ---- that I can understand why the chinese farmer would rather kill the crimer themselves  but not on the dependence of local goverment or police.

 

    At present, there is a harsh noise from the up-stairs......

 

 

I just feel tired to die these days, to realize a dream, we have to pay so much more than we could get. Whatever, I still believe myself that I could pass all the examinations which is quite necessary if I wanna study aboard, though the time is not enough whatsoever.

   

    To master a foreigh language is absolutely a hard work, and the test of foreigh language for chinese is always harder than any nation else because of the hugh number of population. Maybe I have a gift on learning language, that I even could learn Japanese by myself, but if I could master more than 5000 Enlish words in about 3 months is still doubted, I do have a long way to go from now on.

   

    Recently, I begin to study psychology by reading some professional books in english. To study psychology has been my dream since I read some articles from the book "Interpretation of Dreams", and there are too many questions that after I had finished the reading. For me, I just concern the psychology to somekind of research on human beings' soul. Why do we always have a dream or even a nightmare when we are sleeping? What does the psychopath see from his or her eyes exactly? I just wanna get these answers according my study.

   

    Anyhow, the first step is the hardest, keep going is the only available way that I could go. I should take the challenge that the God had gaven me.

   

    Keep going and keep smiling~!

 

PS:I'm just wondering that wot happened to the MSN SPACE?

There so many cases that we have to deal in our daily life, some even cause lots of problem that pull you into a great desperation, please read this when you find it's a huge tire and torpor around.

 

A busy life,

that working either day or night,

could make you crazy and kill you and your body in a few months.

 

A busy life,

that having no time to have a simple meal,

could be harm to your health and kill you and your stomach in a few years.

 

A busy life,

that impeling everything daily to a stupid process like robot in the factory,

could remove the very human in your mind and kill you and your soul for lifetime.

 

Don't try any pursuit of a busy work with good pay,

because the money that you get may not fix the harm that you've got during the work,

meanwhile you're closing to the grave length by length.

 

If you.....

 

Just keeping smile every minute in your life,

enjoying the sunshine of everyday,

thanksgiving for everything happened around you......

 

Although a busy life these are,

you may find a absolutely different answer while the end's coming.

why not to have a try at once?

 

Having a enjoyment of a busy work right in this way.

 

At present day, so many people who are busing with their work feel lonely and lose theirselves sometimes because of the bad social connection. For the person,  dread, anxiety and dereism are familiar situation in their daily life, which could cause insomnia, deliria and even suicide. Many of these people have taken somekind of medicine to cure the illness, but the effect often against purpose at last ---- the therapy could only depend on the patients theirselves.

 

I has been a lonely child since I was very young because of the my parents' busy work, and for the bad teaching of my kindergarten, it was uncommonly for me to been there. Instead, I had spent most of my childhood alone at my grandparents' home ---- the old people were also very busy before I went to elementary school. At that time, I just had no one to talk with but the cat who is one of our family members, too. I couldn't get myself to fix this situation at first, so I had also been intranquil and losing when I was lonely for months.

 

Finally, I had found a perfect way to solve this problem for me ---- talking to myself. I have to point out that it was not the mental illness named split personality, and I didn't create another me on my mind at all. From then on, I had enjoyed soliloquy very much, just asked and answered myself. In my opinion, to create a voice, is only purpose I had that time in order to make myself unlonely and a kind of feeling that there is someone at home ---- I concern this with somekind of self-hypnosis.

 

Whatever, I had neither became to mad man nor had mental illness at last, instead, I was still keeping optimism up to now. I can't say this is the best and perfect way to save people from loneness, but if it's only fit for some people, the more research is absolutely necessary. Of cause, for my further studying on psychology, the more learning on theories is also very important.

 

If you have the same trouble just as my description, have a try, maybe you could get your goal.

 

 

 

 

 

 

After so many years, I still remember the day when father introduce the "Indiana Jones" to me while the Cartoon wasn't on show. As a little kid, I can hardly understand what exactly the movie talks about but enjoy the exciting action, meanwhile I know the name "Dr Jones" at first time.

 

If there is always  a reason for every begining, I guess, the "Indiana Jones" is the reason why I began to love history as kid, and continued to learn more and more later in my life. Up to now, I might have watched "Indiana Jones" in all for hundred times, which make me could even repeat every word in the movie ---- it has been part of my life since the first sight.

 

I had been often dreaming that I could become a historian just like Dr Jones one day during all my childhood, for this reason, history became my favorite lesson when I begin my education. Meanwhile, I've read more than hundreds of books which is concerned historical events and persons in my spare time after class, in this case, I could get a good grade (as good as A+) easily in all my basic-education period.

 

To get understand more about "Indiana Jones", I had persuaded myself to read the books about religion and myth, which had made a great effect that cause my enthusiasm on Christ and Occultism. By the way, the courage, wisdom and justice of Dr Jones also has been part of my character, living with great humor and dream.

 

Now, in the university, I finally choose history as my subject of undergraduate. Somebody said that I was fool enough to choose such a bad subject which is no future after graduation, but, indeed, he just didn't realize that how important a dream mean to man, and also the meanning of history ---- wisdom of all human beings that in the past.

 

My Indiana Jones, my dream...

 

Here are some website of Indiana Jones: